that you can’t go back ever and this will torture you throughout your life that the past is gone even as it remains a tantalizing ghost that can only be made solid by an act of imagination you find hard to summon and it will never be solid that the here and now is a lie the present moment is a fleeting thing and to say the now is an effort of will and the now you spoke of is already in the past that your body is heavy with memory and memories change with time that one day you will end and the world will carry on as if you never were --- p.a. morbid is a Poet, Editor of The Black Light Engine Room Press. Outsider Artist/Musician.