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the agony of the everyday by p.a. morbid

that you can’t go back
ever
and this
will torture you
throughout your life


that the past is gone
even as it remains
a tantalizing ghost
that can
only be made solid
by an act 
of imagination
you find hard to summon
and it 
will never be solid 


that the here and now
is a lie
the present moment
is a fleeting thing
and to say
the now 
is an effort of will
and the now
you spoke of 
is already 
in the past


that your body 
is heavy with memory
and memories
change
with time


that one day
you will end 
and the world will
carry on
as if you never were

---


p.a. morbid is a Poet, Editor of The Black Light Engine Room Press. Outsider Artist/Musician. 

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